This picture represents me finally feeling more satisfied with life and the fact I have more comfort. It also represents the fact I think I am curious about finding a partner in the near future. I have broken a lot of barriers lately, some which I would never have expected. I am working more on psychical health now and have been losing weight. I also think that if I want to find a partner in the future I should take care of myself first if I plan on taking care of someone else as well. About a week ago I had a two to 3 week depression spell. I would have crying spells and more. I talked to my psych about it and she mentioned the term schizoaffective disorder. Which is like a mixture of schizophrenia with a mood disorder. It also has been true that I have been getting mania a lot recently and now depression. Not to mention how the weather affects me. Overall I have been good. The reason I decided to write today, is because I thought in church today since it’s fathers, about my blog and more. So I went to go read it, but that was a little hard for me, so I decided to do an update on myself. I know I have been writing less by a lot, but it’s because I am doing better mentally and don’t feel the need to write out all of my thoughts anymore. I have found empathy, support, love, spirituality and more. I think I did flunk my philosophy class I had an A+ in all year due to the depression spell at the end. I lost motivation and more. On the good side I have found so many new amazing friends it’s great. Whether online or in person, they are good nice people. Sometimes I accidentally neglect some friend groups not on purpose, but hey it’s ok we are all human. I am just figuring things out about myself in a multitude of ways. When I went to church today, I felt uncomfortable though, don’t know why, just felt it wasn’t for me. I am spiritual and even tried to read the bible, yet when I read it I was baffled. There are many dark parts, and things that make me intrigued how millions of people follow this. It made me feel as if people haven’t read the whole thing or choose to not take in the dark parts. today’s blog will be short, but I am debating starting to write more often, we will see. Here is a song to end this post on.
